A Little bit about me - Karen

People who know me know that I want to change everything about my life...and they agree with me. I am in a spot I cannot seem to get out of. I am 42, highly educated, unable to get a proper job that matches my education and abilities, and I am exactly 5 days away from my bariatric surgery that promises to save me from my life of obesity. It also presents new challenges I have never had to face before. I have never been married, and I want to be; and I have no children and would like very much to have a child in my life, a loving family of my own.
When one considers that I have lost several people who are closest to me in my family over the years, it is a wonder to them that I am still trying for a better life. The truth is, I never stop hoping things will change and working toward that. I am not afraid of change. I welcome it. Aside from the bereavement I have suffered, I think many of my problems stem from a life long battle with my wieght, trying to change it for years through diet, then giving up on that and trying to concentrate on self acceptance. The truth is harsh but real, no matter if an overweight woman accepts herself, much of society does not. Hence, my trouble getting the employment I deserve or a partner in life I feel I deserve.
I knew my self esteem had suffered greatly through the years, not only from my weight issues and the rejection that brings, but from having to say goodbye to my father at 13, my brother at 23 and now my sister and closest friend 10 a year ago. Well, ready or not, my life is about to change and I want it to be for the better. I want everything in life I have dreamed of and I want to be able to give more to others than I thought I ever had. I have never been afraid to work hard for anything, I have only ever needed a chance. I am ready to live fully for the first time ever and I could really use your help getting centered, getting peaceful and getting my mind to accept what miracles may lie ahead. Take my hand and walk me to the starting line, please, so I can finally begin to run!