First meeting with Seran, Life Coach

I didn't know what to expect for my first meeting with Seran. I had heard of life coaches, certainly. I have even thought it might be a great idea to go to one. I never ever thought I would actually do it. Yet there I was, following the direction Seran gave me to get to her office, and thinking all the while, "I am pretty lucky to have this opportunity." The time for this in my life could not be better. Just the day before I had learned that the temporary job I have while I am looking for full time employment in my highly specialized field is ending this summer. No more bad pay and part time hours, no more partial insurance, none of which I ever complained about because I felt lucky to even have that little for the time being. I honestly felt there was no mistake that I was about to meet a woman who seemed over the phone like she has more energy and insight to share in one phone call than some people have in a lifetime.
I was nervous at first, but I let Seran guide me through the first session. I knew this would take some work, and I was willing. At the end it occurred to me that no one ever told me until that session with Seran what was correct about me, what I did well. I talked about many of the problems I wrote about in my intro blog. One "aha" moment I had was learning through her example just how to be the master of my own thoughts and feelings. Face it, we are all living this life. No one can prevent sadness and disappointment. They are part of living. But we can prevent them from harming our lives by changing perspective, actually thinking differently about a set of circustances. This is not mere optimism, as it is with 'the glass is half full'. To me, it means looking at a circumstance in truth and deciding to frame it differently. This may involve admitting we do not know whether an event that appears to be negative is really bad; but admitting that, because I do not know all there is to know, this could be the plan playing out.
There is a lot of freedom in admitting that we are not all-powerful and do not know everything there is to know. It is hopeful. It is also honest. After all, it is the way it is. And so I am giving myself permission to live this week without having to be perfect, and without having to act like a doormat just to be accepted. I am vowing this week to be true to myself, my needs, my desires and my feelings without fear. It is the only way to live.